Refreshed

i deleted everything and i'm starting new. this is just for me, and personally what i can no longer say on tumblr. you're great, and i love the fact that we see each other a lot.. but seeing my brother and his girlfriend be the same kind of relationship we're heading into makes me want to take a stop and learn from their mistakes. don't get me wrong because i love spending time with you, but what about my friends.. i haven't seen much of them and i miss them dearly. feels like i'm giving out on them because in the end they are the ones who are going to be there. who knows, you might too but what i've learned from my past is that don't depend too much on that significant other because chances are in the end what's best for them will be to let you be.. leave you, all to yourself. and what do i do then? crawl into a hole because i didn't give my friends time because i gave it all to you? nope. i need to straighten out my priorities. sometimes though this aren't what they seem and maybe you're not what you seem. hell, if i knew half the guys i started talking to were going to fuck me over i wouldn't have even stepped into that.. but at the time i didn't know. just like i don't know yet with you. you could be the best thing that's ever happend to me or the worst.. i can't tell the future but i am willing to give it a shot.. just give me a little away time. that time i can have with my heart and my mind to just rework everything out..